Deep thought

To me life has no bigger meaning. In times of doubt it would be nice to have someone or something to blame your problems on or turn to for help, but if most of our problems are brought upon us by our own actions, who can we blame? Is someone making us do mistakes for a bigger purpose, putting us through good and bad times just so that we could learn a lesson? Is someone trying to turn us into better people? Maybe it's just me doing all the work, deciding what experiences are good and bad, creating problems for my self because I'm too afraid or impatient to see what would happen otherwise.

Life has no plan for me, there's no important part written down and waiting to be played. Some people would think that's a scary thought, but for me it's calming. I like to know that my mistakes weren't previously decided and inevitable. I feel calm knowing I can change my perception of life by changing the way I think and act. But do I wan't to change? I could say I do, but I wouldn't mean it, at least not in the right way.

Today I spent time thinking about questions like this. I riddled my mind with thoughts about life, who I am and all that obvious crap, but for a moment I felt quite lost in that jungle of hopes and dreams. People who've known me for some time, know I can spend hours just thinking in quiet, but today however, my rollercoaster of thoughts got launched by a book I'm currently reading. Among many things it made me think about why I wanted to travel in the first place.

Did I come here just to relax and get away, if so, why did I choose such an unknown continent. Wouldn't it be better to relax in a place that doesn't demand so much work and nerves to get along in? Perhaps I came looking for adventure, but in that case, what am I doing at this up and coming top 10 family holiday/smoochie moochie honeymoon beach resort? No, relaxing and adventure can only be a part of why I'm here. It would be a cliché to say I came looking for my self or to test my self, so in the end, maybe this trip is as meaningless as life. Maybe I came here because for once I wanted to see what would happen when I could no longer stay in the safe zone, in control.

Lets not lable it. Lets see where this wild idea takes me and lets forget all hope of finding an answer to my question of why. Maybe that's the only way to find a bigger meaning. Let go and then you can actually see where the wind blows you. Haha.

Enough with all that poorly written deep thought. Now lets look at some pictures. Pictures are way more interesting.











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Location:Pousada Beira Mar, Porto de Galinhas, Pernambuco, Brazil