Changes

The weather in New Zealand is weird. You can get a wide range of different weather in just a few days. From heavy rain to burning sunshine, fog and clouds to a clear blue sky. Just like everything else around here, the weather too, is this and that.

Today is the day we leave with my mother. We fly back from the warmth and dampness of NZ to the coldness in Finland. The weather will most surely be cold. Windy but cold, rainy but cold, sunny but cold. A slight difference perhaps.

But the weather isn't whats making me sad to leave, it's the experience. The time here has been one of the best times I've had in a long time. I got to reconnect with just being by myself and my parents, no friends around, so you're bound to get to know yourself all over again. Of course, to the friends back at home, a Tessa who has got back to her roots again, might come as a surprise, if it can be sustained till I'm back in Finland, not wiped away by the tough traveling.

I know how ever, that there are friends who are familiar with the old Tess. Friends who, before getting to know me, listed all the weird things I do, and spied on me in school, to laugh about all by weird habits. These weird habits include, long, creative and hard-to-follow thinking, laughing and prancing around like a wild animal and making funny faces and noises. Also a way of eating food in a certain order and dressing in a particular way.

Often this kind of madhouse side of me only occurs when I'm with my parents, so it will be interesting to see, if any of it will translate to the times I spend with my friends. Often stress eats it away, and what is left is a tight, humorless and insecure Tess, who thinks too much of other people's thoughts than lets it loose. I hope I can sustain this laid back feeling I have now regained, and go back to Finland and finish my school year in a new, brighter spirit.

A vacation needed, a holiday used, and an efficient time of. Mission accomplished.