Indecisive decision-making

Since forever, have I struggled to keep doing something that I've started. Football, Ice-skating, skateboarding, boxing and a wide range of dances, have all fallen to make a lasting impression on me, even the 10 year struggle of playing the violin came to an end a few years ago. Looking back, I have always felt a sting of failure. My brother, on the other hand, being very focused on pixel-art from a young age, now works as a graphic designer. That is a lot more to show for dedication than I have. In about half a year, I will turn 18. In Finland that is the BIG age so to say, for me however, it is a ticking time bomb telling me to DO SOMETHING, before I am lost forever and might as well play the ever failing Dennis in Run Fatboy Run.

Many might wonder, why am I in such a hurry to achieve something by the age of 18, after all, there are many years of life beyond 18: I blame the media! Even though I'm not after the young fame or any of that wackness, I am however a believer in the phrase practice makes perfect, and I want to start something at a fairly young age, to be able to achieve good results later.

Though being a very indecisive persona, I have finally thought out something that I have had a secret admiration and love for: Climbing. When I was about 8, our family and some close friends took a trip to lake district in England and hopped up and down some mountains. As a young child, I was the mountain goat of the bunch, always first at the top, grinning at the older boys stumbling behind. A few years later we went cycling for three weeks in Lapland, a terrible experience at the time, with loud campsites and even louder insects, but after an excrutiating cycle up the fjeld Koli, I felt pride like never before. So that it must be, trecking and climbing, because almost all of the most exciting and amazing experiences of my life include tough workout and heights.

So, I think it is now time to take an important new step in the life and struggles of Tessa Dean, and book some wall-climbing lessons, because that too is a part of climbing and trekking. From there I can advance, gain experience and who knows, maybe someday I will achieve something great, far greater than my brother's infinite arranging of pixels, something like: climbing over the Southern Alps of New Zealand, or even the Andies!!... Ehh. Maybe I will settle for some walks up the park for now.